Leave me alone right now

Just leave me alone right now..
You are ruining my mood..
I've doing my best before you knock on my phone...
And now I've lost my spirit again...

Just leave me alone right now
I'll be just fine without you with me
I might do better maybe
so just leave me with my own thoughts

Just leave me alone
I don't need you just like you don't need me..
I can do anything I want here and the same with you there
so don't knock on my mind nor my phone nor my door

Just leave me alone here right now
I can have fun on my own just like you right now
You are just ruining my quality time with my self
I don't need to hear your happy whispers
I just need my time to be alone
and I don't need you either to create my happiness
I am doing good all by my self here...

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Self titled

I have nothing to be proud of
Just like a burning paper that have been turned into ashes by the fire
So fragile yet so dark
Can see nothing in front of my eyes

Loving the darkness in the night
The silent and the peace, the horror and the mystery
Feeling like I am the only one and just waiting for the end to come
Feeling so weak yet so strong

I have nothing to be shown
Just like a doll that has lose it charms
An used doll with nothing to be proud of
An used doll that is a waste

I am not a princess nor a valuable treasure
I am just a human with all of my weakness
I am just a girl with all of my sentimental and naive feelings
I am just an ordinary from all ordinary people


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Foolish girl

I am a fool girl
Satisfy with the lies and happy with the tears
Trying so hard to believe what is fake
Ignoring the truth in front of my eyes

I am a fool girl
Craving for a fairy tale's life
Living in the fantasy world
Shifting the reality with imagination
Belongs to nowhere in the end.

I am a fool girl
Smiling the fake smile
Laughing the fake laugh
Loving the fake person

I am a fool girl
Wish nothing for own desire
Pray nothing for own safe
Just wish the end will come soon enough before it turns into pieces.


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Stuck in the moment...!!!!

            Semester ini adalah semester terakhir kuliah (amin) dan adalah semester yang paling menyiksa..kita harus bikin skripsi yang nantinya bakal diuji dan nentuin apakah kita layak lulus apa ngga..Jauh sebelum di uji, kita bakalan pusing mikirin apa yang bakalan kita tulis dan bagaimana kita nulisnya (just like me RIGHT NOW!!)..belum lagi kita mesti nyari buku-buku bahan referensi yang tahun terbitnya ngga boleh lebih dari 5 (ato 10) tahun dari tahun kita ngerjain skripsi..So much better kalo bisa dapat dosen pembimbingnya enak diajak diskusi dan punya waktu,,nah kalo dapat dosen pembimbing dengan waktu terbatas ato mesti di kejar-kejar ato sibuk banget,,waduh,,berabe ngga tuhh?? bukannya ngebantu malah yang ada tambah bikin pusing...(-.-!)

           Yang paling susah dari ngerjain skripsi adalah awal nulisnya..itu bagian paling sulit..tapi kalo uda ngelewatin bagian yang itu,,yang lain-lain bakalan lancar dengan sendirinya..Masalahnya adalah bagaimana caranya untuk melewati masa awal itu karena that's my position right now...(I'm stuck..!)

            For me right now, I have so many things in my mind but I just don't know how to write it down..I only have a blur view about what I am going to write in the paper for my thesis.. Ato dengan kata lain I HAVE NO IDEA at all how to accomplish this part of my study...and it sucks!

           Around me right now, I can see so many college student are typing their thesis and I'm just typing my words for my blog *geezz* and well,,you can imagine how's my feeling right now...


Note: Pardon for my writing style..I'm just feeling stuck at the moment and I need a place to share my "mumet" minds...


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Self titled

If only this reality is a nightmare
I would prefer to face it than runaway
So much problems that I don't understand
Bring me into the darkness of life.

If only this nightmare can ends smoothly
The worst part wouldn't be so bad
The sadness in the beginning
The happy ending takes its place in the end.

If only the world is just a word
There wouldn't be so many sadness and tears
There wouldn't be so much pains and wounds
It will only exists in the imagination.

-sca-
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